Now life can only be definite and meaningful and united if it is mastered by one Master. The explanation of the dividedness, the disintegration, the distraction, the lack of cohesion and certainty and meaning, is so often that we have not got a Master. Either we are trying to be our own masters, or we are allowing ourselves to be mastered by all sorts of interests and considerations, and thus are playing into the hand of the forces that are at work to destroy our lives. Our great need is of a Master, a Despot, and to be found in utter subjection to Him; what Paul (the man who knew all about this) called ‘being apprehended by Christ Jesus.’ That was Paul’s conception of his conversion. One day the Lord put His hands on him, said, ‘Now, Paul, I have got you; what will you do about it?’ and the wholehearted response, never gone back upon, was, “What shall I do, Lord?” (Acts 22:10). From that time, Paul called himself the bondslave of Jesus Christ, and the one thing that concerned him was to be in subjection to Christ, or for Christ to be absolutely Lord. If it is not like that, life will be a confusion, a civil war inside of ourselves. Unless there is one absolute Master, life will be a misfit; we shall have missed the thing for which God made us, until He is our Master. 

Service (The Works of T. Austin-Sparks) - T. Austin-Sparks